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Sunday, October 28, 2007
i too don't believe in the crap that when i don't go school i can't score well . when i score A2 for my chinese , it feels so good to freak my classmates & schoolmates out . i heard the teacher was like asking , who's the girl from C6 jump to A2. and previously in the beginning of this year i still failed chinese. feels like yeah(: but for the other subjects i really can't do. haven't been studying for more then 2 years i guess ? have not been attending school since last year ? not having a good foundation . i know the fact that this cruel & dumb world needs a piece of useless paper (that even the toiler paper has more use then it) to go round. yucks , but i believe that even w/o it i can i can still do better than those who have it. Why can't the world see that , a person that can score 9As doesn't mean that the person can earn more money for your company. I know that fact that at the end of the day i still need that piece of shit. I tried to study but it always doesn't happen. Study, examinations and Os , really pisses my ear big time. I've given up today on this, but i know I'm gonna make it again someday. as for today - Today i tell myself ; i want to be a brave fighter . i want to be the best baker . O's i can always retake, (: Too, i know if I'm not gonna do well in my O's this year they'll mock the hell out of me. but i want & will be a better & braver person & to let those people whom had back stabbed me, stepped me, kicked me when I'm down, pushed me all around and hurt the fuck out of me to know . i am definitely better then them , i am no longer the little girl that can let them push around , & spit at . to be bullied . i know i won't pass my O's this year. Try? i have nothing to try with. Sometimes you must be honest with yourself you know whats gonna happen & i know i cant . i can see it .it's not about the motivation & self-whatever, its just the fact you know. and i sure lag a lot of determination and perseverance in studying. Epically when I hadn't been studying for such a long time. Study is really not my way.
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